I have some good news to share with you all, as well as a little story. I graduated on Monday! The ceremony, despite my nervousness at first, was beautiful. If I could rewind and do it all over again, I would. It was amazing, and the outfit I had tailored came out better than I could have ever imagined.
I started my university journey in 2017, and at the time, I was a Law student. There was always a little voice in my head telling me that wasn’t the right course for me, but I ignored it, and I really shouldn’t have. My classes did absolutely nothing to inspire or excite me, and I felt like I didn’t belong. As if that wasn’t bad enough, moving to Namibia turned out to be unpleasant. I had to deal with new cultures, new ways of life, new surroundings, new people…it was all incredibly overwhelming for me, and I was barely coping. Eventually, after it became very apparent that I had to switch courses, I did. Things got a little better after that, and even though I was dealing with a lot in my personal life, my classes were great, and I genuinely loved my course. Having done Law for a year, I couldn’t even begin to explain how amazing it felt to be seated in a lecture room and feel like I was exactly where I wanted to be.
However, like I said, there was a lot happening in my personal life, so things weren’t exactly all sunshine and roses. I dealt with heartbreak, being taken advantage of when my intentions were pure, loneliness, roommate troubles, and some other things as well. All of this then resulted in depression and crippling anxiety. There were days where I couldn’t get out of bed and all I seemingly had the energy to do was cry. There were also days where the last thing I wanted was to be alive. The pleasant experiences paled in comparison to the unpleasant ones, and all of that landed me in hospital, desperately clutching my antidepressants in one hand.
Fast forward to May 2022, I have a string of distinctions in my credit certificate, I graduated Cum Laude, I was the best undergraduate student in the university, I received the Dean’s Award and the Vice-Chancellor’s Award, and I was interviewed by two university publications. During my ceremony, I was the star of the show and it was beyond exhilarating. I’m stating facts and I’m also bragging, which is fine because with everything I’ve been through, I deserve to.
I’m not sharing this so that I can end this blog post with some cliché advice about how what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger and bla bla bla. I’m sharing this bittersweet tale because I’m truly proud of myself and the warrior within me. It’s been quite the ride.